~When loneliness strikes~

2011-07-20T23:38:00.002+08:00

I shall take those breath-taking moments and beautiful memories with me, and leave those sad ones behind. There's so much more to explore, so much more to find out. So, life just goes on and on and on......
We once proudly said we were professional procrastinators... In the end I found out, I was the only one procrastinating, not you, for you are already way ahead of me...hehes :]

Don't worry, be happy. ;)

Whoa~!

2011-07-14T23:18:00.000+08:00

I call it...... THE SHINY, GLITTERY FULL MOON! xD

Sweet

2011-07-13T15:55:00.001+08:00

The scent of rose all the way back home :)

ASDF

2011-07-02T13:49:00.001+08:00

Please jangan pura-pura tak see me kay, you know I hate it, I really hate it and it really hurts me. Sometimes I wonder are we friends or we just weren't friends at the very beginning. You kind of hurt me, i don't think you ever noticed anyway. Yeah, if you want to do this, don't stop me, u wanted it that way, so don't blame me afterthat. I am warning you. Damn you!

Someone has no time for me, I'm starting to get tired. When I'm too tired, I'll be letting go. when I let go, there'll be hardly any chance to reverse. You are getting me used to be without you, and sadly, I'm starting to get used to be without you. Hell! I don't want this to happen. It's coming to an end i know...

Well, after all I'm just a noone. D marathon was okay, I just wasn't prepared. I'm never prepared for anything, up till now. I feel really useless. And now, I'm back, being my own self, shutting up, sitting at the corner, waiting for everybody to pass me by and say 'hey, useless.' i can't help feeling lonely. Sometimes i wanna shout out ' leave me alone to die by myself here'. I hate that feeling, it's awful, it hurts. still, I don't know what the hell to do with myself and my life. And I ended up mourning everyday about how my life sucks and how my results suck .... There's no use I know, what am I suppose to do and where am I suppose to go? I'm lost, I don't know, I really don't know. Maybe I'm just tired, perhaps I'm really not prepared, maybe it's best for me to just sit down at d corner, perhaps I'm born to be by myself, maybe I should just stop thinking about nonsense, perhaps it's time, it's time to get my ass off the floor and run for my life, for my future, for myself, and the world.

as years gone by

2010-08-24T17:03:00.003+08:00

Dancing class huh, who knew i would ever be there to join them
not even myself.
the teacher had been waiting for 10 years, i'm so touched.
and so.... i'm in.
old friends are better than new friends, i suppose...
there's a unique feeling when u get together with them

five of us, apart.
school, homework, exam, life, on our own.
chin woo, d only place we can meet every week. have fun, catch up with each other.
after all, being 11 years of friends...
Michelle, Pei Ru, Sue Yi, Jer Syuen and me
i don't know how long will this last
i don't know if u will still remember me in the future, or say hi to me when you ever see me
though some of you had been mine
some are still mine
but i will remember you, always, for being my friends

Best isn't best anymore

2010-08-11T18:18:00.003+08:00

u are my best friend and will always be
i doubt if i'm urs too?
u claim i am, but i don't feel anything about it
because deep inside my heart i know, i can never be...
just to see you, i look for you whenever i have time
u came to see me too! once in a blue moon
eventhough i'm so close to u
when u came into my class, i feel excited to see you here
and sad coz i'm not the one u're looking for but someone else
maybe i'm a zygote and too small to be seen?
all i wanted is just a hi or a smile, if u're willing to give me any of those
coz u can just pass me by without noticing me, twice, in just 5 minutes
u cannot hear me even if i shout at ur name out loud till everyone's staring at me, i'm mad
maybe studying is all u love, nothing else including me.
it's a sad thing but some how it happens between us
if u want to save this, let me know
if u want to give up, i guess i'll just have to learn to let go

Pissed...no Peace?

2010-07-15T20:42:00.004+08:00

Pissed!
physics is driving me crazy.

maths and peka were awfully not awesome.

hate u, wanna slap u on ur face! and yeah, i do hate you.

thanks Lydia Cheah for being pissed off today TOO *high five*

SCREW THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Madness >.>

2010-07-08T16:04:00.003+08:00

i tell u
i will not listen to u no matter what, UNLESS i chose to
u can do nothing to me
and i won't let u do anything to me
u FISH OFF coz u make me FISHING MAD
maybe coz u're already mad
DON'T SPREAD THE MADNESS PLEASE
i don't wanna get ur mad-horse disease
this is not a right way to spread ur madness
JUST FISH OFF please
if u don't, i'll fish u someday

Sports DAY

2010-07-08T16:01:00.001+08:00

SPORTS DAY WAS SO SO SO FREAKING AWESOME!

I'm LOVIN IT~!!!!!!!!!!

迷茫

2010-06-24T22:09:00.003+08:00

窗外下着雨，滴滴答答，就似此刻心情。

我是枯树上的一片枯叶，被雨打着打着，落在地上，离开仅有的依靠。

担心害怕，却没有勇气，没有目标，没有方向，只好顺着雨水漂流，漂往迷茫的世界。

特别的心情

2010-06-24T21:42:00.006+08:00

今天心情很特别，有点惆怅，有点忧郁，不知道该做什么好，没有目标，提不起劲儿。
假期前的某天也抱有同样的心情。
原来这是预感，我现在知道了。
为何有这样的心情？我大概也找出原因了。

遇见你的预感，遇见你的心情。没话说，心里明白=】

愤！

2010-06-24T21:23:00.003+08:00

为什么？为什么要这样？

太婆八十九岁大寿，我却因为上课不能出席。明知道我不能出席，我一再拜托你替我拍些照片给我看，你说你会，结果没有，你说没空，我没办法。你回来时，一直炫耀那里多热闹，那里那么多美食吃，叔公的小孙女又多么的可爱。照片呢？一张都没有。你什么意思啊？明知道我好几年没见到他们了，对他们的思念你知道吗？你不知道。表面上好像什么都知道，其实都是一知半解。对不起，我不想让你完全进入我世界。你了解我那么一点就好，我也不想让你了解太多。

那几个姑婆，很厉害是吗？贪吃到死，没见过美食是吗？！好吃的食物，有必要通通打包完，剩下那区区两块吗？姑婆就是姑婆，我无言！

姓陈的，你们有多幸福，你们知道吗？外面大把人连吃饭都困难，你们就不能惜福吗？有的吃又吵，没得吃又闹，若有一天我外婆发生什么事就有你们好看！！！我外婆那么大把年纪，还要服侍你们这些三八的人，不烦才怪，你们知不知羞耻啊？这样欺负我外婆老人家，你们有没有良心啊？

还有你们这几个兄弟，就不能和和睦睦吗？一天到晚斗来斗去，很爽吗？那么丢脸的事都做得出。你这个大哥怎么做的，那么老了还要欺负弟弟。害到弟弟跟你赌气，现在什么节日都不到，连新年都看不到整家人的人影。很爽是吗？不知道你这个大哥怎么想东西的。。。

Childish

2010-06-24T21:21:00.002+08:00

我讨厌A, B, C, D
E, F, G, H 讨厌我
讨厌我是吗？告诉我原因啦！不要暗地在那里耍手段！几岁了哦？简直幼稚到极点！

swimmy :)

2010-04-25T20:54:00.007+08:00

okay okay okay! i admit. U ARE A PRO, get it????!

TEACHER SAID WE COULD JUMP ALONE. ALONEEE!!!!!!!
n that is what we are proud of :D

There were times my goggles fell off, ran out of breathe, hit my belly, drank some water, choked myself and kind of drowning. n of course shouting and screaming and laughing about! can't blame it, that was only my THIRD time xD

I jumped, I dived, I swam, I sink, I float, I choked, I laughed!

Eventually, yea…my skin is getting darker, n I think I got sunburnt…

nicholas: i wanna get up edi…my skin is getting darker…

me: why do you care? U’RE ALREADY SO DARK! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Someday I’ll be d same TT
I WILL CATCH YOU AND CHOKE YOU with chlorine water! xD

NEXT WEEK’S AIM: TOUCH D 14 FEET GROUND WITH MY OWN STRENGTH AND BREATHE AND FEET!

Pull me down if I can’t reach d ground :)

thr's always another reason

Made a new friend whose name i never got

2010-04-18T19:25:00.001+08:00

Made a new friend whose name i never got...

Yesterday in 千人宴：

I was suppose to see ks, too bad ks didn't turn up. ks was suppose to bring me to my friends if I found ks. unfortunately, miracles never happen. I saw almost all of my friends but ks. Funny eh?

conversation between new friend - unknown prefect, me, sis, zhen bang, shook kwan

me: hi! 你好！你们在这里站岗啊？

Zb n sk: 是啊，做么你在这里的？

Me: 我来看我表妹表演嘛！

Zb n sk: ooh~

×××××××××××××××××××××××××

Sis: 姐～要回去了没有，我想回去～

Me: o…你先回去啦！

Sis: 还是不要啦…

Me: =.=

×××××××××××××××××××××××××

up：eh, 你们的坐位在哪里，回去坐，不要站在这边。

Sis: huh~姐～要走了

Me:我才不要走，你先回去啦！

Sis: 哦. =(

××××××××× (few mins later) ×××××××××

Sis: eh, 姐～我回来了！

up: O_O

Me: 哦.

Sis to up: 我回来了！

Up: *laughs*

sis: 等下他赶我走怎么办?

me: aiya,不用管他啦(continue watching performance)

up: *laughs again*

(prefect goes away.....prefect comes back)

Up: 我回来了！

Me n sis: hahahahahaha

×××××××××××××××××××××××××

Me: 我先回去，等下回来。

Sis：huh？哦，快点回来～

Me：okay

×××××××××××××××××××××××××

me: (came back) 我回来了！

Sis: eh! 要报到的！！！

Me: huh？？？向谁报到?

Sis: neh~那个学长咯！

Me: huh? O…我回来了！

Up: *laughs*

Zb n sk: 你们认识的啊？

Me: huh?! 我不认识他的

Sk: 跟他做朋友咯！

×××××××××××××××××××××××××

(A prefect speaking to this unknown prefect)

Me: eh, 刚才你的上司骂你啊？

Up：没有啊,他称赞我啦。

Me: 做么他称赞你？

Up: 他称赞我无端端认识两个朋友咯！

Me: hahaha

Up: haha

Hey unknown prefect, ur so funny, wat’s ur name?

D:

2010-03-31T20:16:00.003+08:00

"A little disappointment + regret + sadness"

in fact, not a little, quite a lot...
what to do? keep going on?
tired...exhausted...
well, there's nothing much left behind...
but i can't see the future either...

D:
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sunshine.

2010-03-04T20:43:00.004+08:00

i'll be fine...
i've got a pocketful of sunshine.

:)

HATE! vs LOVE?

2010-03-04T18:25:00.009+08:00

i hate being aimless
i hate being lonely
i hate having so little time
i hate failing exams again and again
i hate falling asleep in class
i hate being worried at all times
i hate being anxious for no reason
i hate it when i don't understand a word

the teacher says ESPECIALLY MATHS
i hate being lazy
i hate doing homework
i hate to be tired
i hate to be lonely
i hate eating lemons
i hate being banned from facebook
i hate being hated
i hate being mean
i hate annoying people
i hate people who hates me
i hate hating
i hate myself. :)

i love my friends
i love my family?

i love to learn
i love to chat
i love to collect keychains
i love to do silly stuff
i love to admire
i love travelling
i love to hang out with my friends
i love to read
i love being friendly
i love being nice
i love being good
i love listening to music
i love listening to people
i love wandering
i love dreaming
i love sleeping
i love loving
i love myself. :)

hols. resolutions?

2010-01-13T17:28:00.003+08:00

ahem ahem... i'm back!...yea, FINALLY

well, school's OKAY (=P to ppl i tsk tsk, yes especially that DUMMY)

i miss marsella, xin yi, n charmaine n cheryl 1 n cheryl 2.

life has been miserable, really.

things i tried to do during hols:

1. GAIN WEIGHT!!!

2. sleep early =.=

3. read

4. watch tv

5. MOVIES =(

6. shopping

7. visiting friends

8....

9.....

10....

well, these were my goals, too bad i didn't achiev them =(

someone gave me a present as a reward (for exams), guess wat?!

i received a book......that's not the main point.

ahem ahem...*tsk*

TITLE: BEING A HAPPY TEEN

dang! am i not happy enough?!?!

maybe i should... well... SMILE EVERY TIME I SEE ANYBODY?

god. nice book. thanks for that...A. I.

wish me good luck on gaining weight, n growing tall.

shouyu, eventhough being TALL has the chances of BANGING INTO THINGS, i still wish i'd be taller.

;)

day by day...

2009-11-16T18:39:00.006+08:00

it's been a while...
i mean...nt JUST awhile...
i miss my bloggie so much ;)
very very much...

12 nov, d day b4 bday
school hving sports...lost... too bad =(
in class... playing cards n bla bla bla
oh yes! SNAP PICTURES!!!!! xD

13 nov, bday
parents' nt here with me...
HOME ALONE...LONELINESS STRIKESSSSSSSSS!
hw i wish thr's someone to play with D=
school? no mood to play...sleep n sleep n sleep
back home...FACEBOOK! =D

14 nov, saturday
school...playing cards...kept on losing
won my 1st UNO in class! xD
SNAP PICTURES!!! ;D

15 nov, sunday

sports...

ate ice-cream while raining *peace*

caught a cold =P

fun fun fun!

16 nov, TODAY

report card...result shucks =P

went for last minute outing...20 over ppl

MOVIES!!! 2012...i can't take my hands off my eyes =P

walking aimlessly in pavillion...doing nth

HOME =D

*thr's sth i'm SUPPOSE to know...if u don't like me, TELL ME!!! nvm if u didn't, i'll find it out anyway... goodbye my "friend"
ps: YOU ARE HURTING ME (yeah, n thx for that! xP)

well, mom n dad will b back from hk today! hope to see them soon... =D

I miss them sooooo muchieeeee!

time to say goodbye........to freedom ='(

WHERE D 'H' IS EVERYONE?!?!?!

2009-10-13T21:24:00.005+08:00

WHY IS EVERYBODY STILL SO BUSY?
PMR IS OVER WEIH~!!!!!!
DON'T STUFF ME WITH LEMONS!
DON'T MAKE ME DIE OF BOREDOM!
I NEED SOMEONE TO CHAT WITH!
I NEED SOMEONE TO PLAY WITH!
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jshffefvnvjgyrerbsho8fer =P

2009-09-19T19:01:00.003+08:00

tarot...quite true =D
i wonder wat's wrong... =?
weihhhh!!!
laziness is calling
rawr! playtime! x)
play play play
study la!!!!
no mood =.=
stups stups stups
bla bla bla
stay away from me...you...yes you....yes YOU!!!!!!!
whoots! =P

Keychains n Soft Toys

2009-08-21T22:21:00.005+08:00

I LOVE SOFT TOYS!

during exam period, i brought different soft toys to school everyday. =D

thinking it'll bring me luck and give me comfort...n play with me during exam! haha

i spent my time studying with my toy keychain...which makes me more energetic! x)

i brought blue elephant, DINOSAUR, golden retriever and...lots la...

someone likes my dinosaur!

yay! at least i'm nt the only one who still play soft toys in school...

some people thinks i'm childish

who cares?!

I LOVE collecting KEYCHAINS!

......*peace*

Let Go

2009-08-21T22:12:00.002+08:00

there's a sudden feeling in me

i don't know what that is

it's calm and peaceful

take things easy...

chill...

maybe i took things to seriously all the time?

and ended up getting nothing done

n gave up in d end

this thing won't work in d long run

it's just time to let go sth else

although i'll miss it...

but i'll just hv to say goodbye

goodbye...

Double L's

2009-08-05T12:04:00.003+08:00

when loneliness and laziness strikes...

everything comes to a halt...

everything becomes zero...

but things are not so bad, not so bad

eventhough evrything becomes grey

i'll still keep on

live my life

yes...MY LIFE

MY LIFE...

anti-hw

2009-06-10T18:33:00.003+08:00

shoo shoo homework
i dislike u

i hate u

i anti-u

i want u to dissapear

i want u to stay away

i want u to...

JUST GO AWAY and NEVER EVER COME BACK to MEEEEEE!!!

M O O D Y

2009-05-28T18:32:00.003+08:00

Please save me
I'm in a terrible mood
Very very very terrible...
Extremely terible...

Someone's Watching Over Me

2009-05-28T18:02:00.002+08:00

I found myself today
Oh, I found myself and ran away
But something pulled me back
A voice of reason, I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it’s written in the sky tonight

[Chorus:]
So I won’t give up
No, I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe
Someone’s watching over me

I’ve seen that ray of light
And it’s shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I won’t be afraid
To follow everywhere it’s taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment, to my dreams

[Chorus]

It doesn’t matter what people say
And it doesn’t matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself
And you’ll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe...
That I won’t give up
No I won’t break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I’m standing in the dark I’ll still believe...
That someone’s watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me
Someone's watching over me

I Will Follow Him~

2009-05-27T18:06:00.001+08:00

I am very very very hyper right now…3 XIAO WON THE 2ND PRIZE!!!
I can’t believe it!
Lol…I am just so happy right now~
B: Boys G: Girls S: Solo A: All
A: I will follow Him~ Follow Him wherever He may go~
And near Him I always will be~
For nothing can keep me away~
He is my destiny…
I will follow Him~ Eversince He touched my heart I knew~
There isn’t an ocean too deep, a mountain so high it can keep, keep me away~
Away from His love~
...............
A: I love Him! I love Him! I love Him!
And where He goes I’ll follow! I’ll follow! I’ll follow!
B: I will follow Him~ Follow Him wherever He may go~
There isn’t an ocean too deep, a mountain so high it can keep, keep me away~
G: Keep me away~
A: I will follow Him~ S: Follow Him~
A: Follow Him wherever He may go~ S: Oo…oo…oo
A: There isn’t an ocean too deep, a mountain so high it can keep, keep me away~Away from His
love~
A: I love Him! S: Oh yes I love Him!
A: I’ll follow S: I’m gonna follow~
A: True love S: He’ll always be my true love!
A: Forever S: From now until forever!
A: I love Him! I love Him! I love Him!
And where He goes I’ll follow! I’ll follow! I’ll follow!
He’ll always be my true love! my true love! my true love!
From now until forever! Forever! Forever!
There isn’t an ocean too deep, a mountain so high it can keep, keep me away~
Away from His love~

100 Truths - by Anne

2009-05-22T16:02:00.005+08:00

001.Real Name: Jan Va
002. Nickname(s): Jan?
003. Age: 14
004. Zodiac Sign: Scorpio
005. Male or Female: Female
006. Elementary: Kuen Cheng
007. Middle School: SJK(C) Kuen Cheng (2)
008. High School: Chong Hwa Independent High School
009. College School: wait...
010. Hair colour: Black n brown?
011. Long or Short: Short
012. Loud or Quiet: How would i know?
013. Sweats or Jeans: Sweats
014. Phone or Camera: Camera
015. Health freak: lol...tak tau...maybe
016. Drink or Smoke?: anti-drink, anti-smoke
017. Do you have a crush on someone: huh?! seriously tak tau...
018. Eat or Drink: makan...i want to grow la...i'm the skinniest n lightest...and the shortest (maybe not THE SHORTEST)
019. Piercings: none
020. Tattoos: anti-tattoos
021. Social or Anti-Social: depends =)
022. Righty or lefty: Righty

First:

023. First piercing: tak ada la!
024. First relationship: ?
025. First Best Friend: Michelle? Pei Ru? Sue Yi?
026. First Award: sports~4 yrs old...never participate in sports competition ever since
027. First Kiss: mom or dad? forgot la...
028. First Pet: none...dog in grandma's house (roxy)...miss her
029. First Big Vacation: Singapore!
030. First Love at first sight: ahem ahem...seriously tak tau also
031. First Big Birthday: 12! yeah~!
032. First Surgery: tak tau...
033. First sport you joined: run?

Choose:

034. Orange or Apple juice: apple
035. Rock or Rap: none
036. Country or Screamo: tak tau...
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: backstreet boys
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Christina Aguilera
039. Night or Day: night...i love to see the moon~
040. Sun or Moon: moon
041. TV or Internet: Internet
042. Playstation or xbox: none..don't have...
043. Kiss or hug: huggie~
044. Iguana or turtle: turtle...4 in grandma's house
045. Spider or bee: ...saw bee?
046. Fall or spring: fall
047. Limewire or iTunes: itunes
048. Soccer or baseball: neither

Currently:

049. Eating: nope
050. Drinking: nope
051. Excitement level: 50%
052. I'm about to: post this post
053. Listening to: Cool
054. Plan for today: homework
055. Waiting for: HOLIDAYS~!
056. Energy Level: 50%
057. Thinking of someone: always~

Your Future:

058. Want kids?: tak tau...
059. Want to get married?: tak tau...
o60. When? : i say tak tau
061. How many kids do you want: I SAY TAK TAU!!!
062. Any name on the mind: =.= I SAY TAK TAU LO~!!!!!!!
063. What did you want to be when you were little: teacher
064. Careers in mind: blank
065. Mellow future or wind? : ?
066. Something you would never try: drugs, KILL...humans
067. When do you want to die : very very old, without any sickness
068. Lips or Eyes: eyes
069. Romantic or Funny?: Both
070. Shorter or Taller?: i want to grow tall~
071. Protective or Caring : Both
072. Romantic or Spontaneous : tak tau
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms : tak tau
074. Sensitive or Loud : sensitive
075. Hook-up or Relationship : tak tau
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant : Trouble maker~lolz
077. Muscular or normal: Normal
078. Kissed a stranger: anti
079. Broken a bone: err....no

Have you ever:

080. Lost glasses or contacts: Yeap
081. Ran away from home: never
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: yes...fake one
083. Killed somebody: never
084. Broken someone's heart: yeap...accidentally and purposely
085. Had your heart broken: yes!
086. Been arrested: NO
087. Cried when someone died: yeap~my great grandma
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: dunno

Do you believe in:

089. Yourself: walao...45% only
090. Miracles: maybe =)
091. Love at first sight: tak tau
092. Heaven: definitely =)
093. Santa Claus: nope
094. Sex on the first date: NEVER
095. Kiss in the first date: NEVER
096. Angels: yup

Answer Truthfully:

097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now: seriously tak tau
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now: Yeah.....no(reminds me of Yes-man) 099. Do you believe in God: Maybe =)
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people.
1. Michelle
2. Hershinn
3.Hsin Yee
4. Gwen Yi
5.Wey-Ann
6. Ee Wern
7. Guang Ying
8. Yi Min
9. Shou Yu
10. Anyone who is willing to do this tag =)

First Taggie...by Evelyn =)

2009-04-04T20:10:00.006+08:00

1.What do you think about yourself?
Annoying. Bully. Caring?!. Dependent. Extreme. Fool. Great?! .Happy. Irritating. Joyful.......

2. Why?
Coz my heart and brain thinks so...

3. If you could make any character come to life, who would it be?
Too many la...

4. Have you regretted anything you did before?
Yeah I DO!!! but i made the same mistakes over and over again...*sniff*

5. Name two.
Pro in procrastinating. Phd in time wasting.

6. Have you liked someone the opposite sex before?
Who doesn't?! I like everybody.

7. Name five.
F-I-V-E??? Err....here they are:
1. Daddy?
2. Grandpa?
3. Uncle?
4. Couzzie!!!
5. Friends

8. How are you feeling right now?
I feel tired. Lolz. Err...HYPER!!!

9. What will most probably happen tomorrow?
I can't predict the future. *Ahem Ahem* I hope there is a suprise!

10. Who do you want to see most RIGHT NOW?
YOU!!! =)

11. Do you believe in God?
Well...sometimes i do, sometimes i don't :X

12. Do you love him?
Who is the "him"? I don't know who that is and how am i suppose to love him?

13. Have you ever talked sick with your friends?
I don't know this la...ASK MY FRIENDS =)

14. Are ppl the opposite sex involved in your conversations too?
Maybe, maybe not.

15. What do you want to achieve now?
Finish my homework! Lolz. *i still owe teacher January's homework*

16. Name 6 friends.
1. Evelyn
2. Foong Yee
3. Hui En
4. Cheryl
5. Marsella
6. Ting Xin Yi

17. Describe 3.
I miss her a lot la....

18. Who do you love more?
I don't know...I'm fair...i love all of them the same =)

19. Use ONE word to describe 5.
BUDDY!!!

20. If the world is coming to an end, what would you say to 2?
Let's run!!! Wait for me!

Tag 5 people:
1. Michelle
2. Hui En
3. Foong Yee
4. Hershinn
5. YOU!!!

Jog-a-thon

2009-03-29T17:26:00.003+08:00

There's jogathon in school today

Dad says i'm suppose to go to cheer or whatever and have fun

but i have class today

so...didn't make it

actually, i'm suppose to "jog" today

BUT due to my bone problems and my class today

i have to give up

i heard some of you have blisters, poor you guys

Lolz...

Wonder~

2009-03-28T14:44:00.003+08:00

Sometimes i really wonder what life's all about
can anyone tell me?
I don't know anything
I know nothing
I'm waiting for someday to come
i don't know when
I'm waiting for someone to help me
i don't know who
I'm waiting for something to happen
i don't know what
Maybe life is just like a mystery?

L A Z Y

2009-03-25T22:10:00.003+08:00

These few days in school very funny
I kept laughing and laughing in school
...someone thinks i'm too hyper
And...
my laziness brought me to disaster...AGAIN
today was a narrow escape
i managed tofinish my homework on the last period
n of course handed in my self to the teacher
this is the second time
i hope this will be the last time...Lolz
any drugs to cure laziness?

-u-

2009-03-23T22:26:00.001+08:00

Hey dumb dumb
Gimme some gum gum
n some rum rum
n a bun bun
don’t u try to run run
I’ll hunt hunt
n shoot u with a gun gun
n u’ll go numb numb
then I’ll eat the yum yum
and have fun fun

I am?

2009-03-19T13:14:00.001+08:00

I'm an angel
I'm a devil
I am sometimes in between
I'm as bad as it can get
And good as it can be
Sometimes I'm a million colors
Sometimes I'm black and white
Sometimes I’m not sure what color I am
I'm someone filled with self-belief
And haunted by self-doubt
I've got all the answers
But I’ve got nothing figured out
I like to be by myself
I hate to be alone
I'm a million contradictions
Sometimes I make no sense
Sometimes I'm perfect
Sometimes I'm a mess
Sometimes I'm happy
Sometimes I'm miserable
Sometimes I don’t know who I am
Can anyone tell me who i am?

ChANge

2009-03-19T13:09:00.002+08:00

Things are getting more and more complicated
Things are changing
people are changinge
verything in the world is changing
should I change too?
I dislike changes
I hate changes
is it time for a change?
should I change?
am I ready for it?

Roxy...miss you

2009-03-15T07:00:00.002+08:00

I sure miss her a lot...
Today...someone came...some veterinarian...
He's going to take Roxy away from me...
Roxy will be injected for her deadly disease and go to heaven
Today will be the last time I see Roxy
Although she will be dead in a few hours, but she won’t die in my heart...never
Roxy has been my childhood pet in the past 14 years
I love her very much
I used to pat her everyday
I played with her everyday
I also share my deepest things in my life with her
But now, at this very moment
She will no longer be here...
I miss her
I just can’t control myself
tears roll down when I see her leave
I really miss her…
May she rest in peace…

Bankrupt~

2009-03-14T17:00:00.000+08:00

Played monopoly with sis n couzzie
it was supposed to be fun
BUT....
i ended up bankrupt...which makes the whole game a crap
i don't wanna be bankrupt...
i don't wanna see my couzzie counting $500 notes over n over again
i don't wanna see sis laughing at me
please...
i think i won't be playing monopoly for quite some time...
until i get over it...

Couzzie makes you Cozy

2009-03-14T14:30:00.002+08:00

Having a couzzie makes you feel great!
I mean...you do feel great if you have a great one...
In grandma's house now
spending time with couzzies makes you feel cozy
yes...
tonight i am spending time with mine
MONOPOLY THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT!!!
i'll sleep at 2am...haha...my target tonight
i'm so disobedient...
sleeping so late when mom's not around...
maybe this is what we call...teenage?
i don't know either
...back to monopoly with couzzie

Ways on how to spend timeonly for reference

2009-03-14T14:00:00.001+08:00

1. Breathe
2. Stay online...as long as i can stand
3. Find something to eat...*munch*
4. Break my humerus to make me humorous...not funny if it's really broken...never try this
5. Go up and down the stairs for n times...
6. Read blogs upside down...
7. Look for strands of white hair in mine...
8. Listen to songs...
9. Tie 20 braids for cuzzie...
10. Complete my 3X3...*phatz thinks i am crazy...am i?*
11. Stare at my dog for 15 minutes...
12. Book tickets for movie...if there's any
13. Count my sister's clips...i think there's 1 under her bed
14. Play board games...with cuzzies and sis
15. Rearrange my clothes...
16. Open a book and slam it...
17. Count the stars...if there is any
18. Play computer games...
19. Scribble on walls and rub it off...
20. Watch tv...
21. Switch off the lights and turn them on again...
22. SMS...
23. Tear paper into bits...
24. Spill some milk on the floor and wipe it clean...
25. COUNTDOWN...sleep

CraP~

2009-03-08T12:58:00.000+08:00

today is just.......CRAP
i hate lisan
i hate lisan
i hate lisan
i got so nervous until i had tummy ache
i was really really really really nervous...
urgh!!! i hate tummy ache...
it starts aching whenever i get nervous...EVERYTIME
i can't speak loudly in the class in front of everybody
that makes me sound like whispering to my ownself
and i hate that...very much indeed
i'm gonna fail in my lisan if i keep going on like this
who wants to save me???

Rain /l/l/l/l/l/l

2009-03-05T21:48:00.001+08:00

Raining these days...
at the "perfect" timing...after school
walking in the rain...
lots and lots of thoughts came up to my mind...
i don't know what that fuss is all about...
keeping my brain "busy" for nothing
maybe that's just the feel i get whenever it rains...

"E+" the Exam Monster!!!

2009-02-26T18:30:00.000+08:00

I just hate exam...
well.......who likes it?
it's like a gigantic scary monster that will gulp you up in no time
you and your friend start screaming n yelling about
"A..a....r....g...h.......help!!!"
"OMG! it's soooo scary!!! are you scared?"
"yes...i.....am........v...e.r..y......v...e.r...y.....s...c..a..r..e.d......."
"do you think we should run for our lives?"
"i....d..o..n..'..t.....k...n..o...w......w..h...a..t.....a...b..o..u..t........y..o..u?"
"let's run for our lives!"
"n...o....w?!"
"yes! NOW!!!"
"err..........w...h..e...r..e?!"
"wherever we can GO!!!"
"o..k..a..y..........l..e..t..'..s.....go..."
time passes...
..........
.....
you both say: "ARE WE IN HEAVEN or HELL???"
*i don't know what am i actually trying to tell in this post*

Things are sooo not right...

2009-02-22T12:47:00.000+08:00

It's just not me...

something wrong is happening...i could sense that

motionless, right here and now

lost my path

i don't know what to think, nor say, nor do

everything is just empty including my mind

things are just the way they shouldn't be

people just changed from what they were

i don't like changes

i dislike changes

i hate changes

say......no

Sister Of A Witch~

2009-02-21T13:30:00.000+08:00

Attention people! ATTENTION!!!
Chapter 6 for "Sister Of A Witch" is finally out!!!
*claps n cheers*
gosh, i've waiting for this for months!
thanks to lydia!
Here's her website - lydia-stories.blogspot.com

Speechless..

2009-02-21T13:00:00.000+08:00

There's something weird I found out these few days...
i can't open my mouth as i used to
even if i do, no sound came out...
n that made me speechless...
i sometimes wonder what causes this to happen...
i'm still looking for the answer...
let's wait n see...

Today just ROCKS!!!

2009-02-20T14:00:00.000+08:00

Today was sooo exciting =)
I was laughing the whole day in school...Lolz
there's syarahan competition today...
we kept quiet in case we got kicked out of d hall
some ppl r doing maths
some r reading for exams (exam's coming!!! run for ur life!!!)
some r concentrating listening to d syarahan (there's only one actually...phatz)
the rest... spoke quietly n softly n gently
until...
our monitor (the last contestant) finished her syarahan...
the boys stand up together...
Claps n Cheeers n Whistles n stuff they could think of to do
it was soooo loud till everybody looked at us...
it was super funny n...embarassed?
our monitor then walked down d stage
with a BROAD SMILE on her face
walking steadily back to her seat...
time to wait...for d results
the result is...another contestant from our class won!
Claps n Cheeers n Whistles AGAIN!!!
this time, more ppl in our class stand up to cheer, including d girls
well...more n more eyes starring at us...
but i don't feel embarassed anymore...
it's a kinda happy feel!!! dunno y (weird me =P)
one of the contestant from another class won too...
they copied US...
they stand up n cheer too!!!
n so... our class boo-ed them...haha (the consequence of being a copycat)
well...today just ROCKS!

S-T-M (stupid time management)

2009-02-16T13:00:00.000+08:00

Today is Sunday…
Everything seems perfect to me…
today I went swimming…
it was nice but tiring
I swam for at least 10 laps… bet I’ll have muscle cram tomorrow
Oh! And I saw my friend who haven’t met for years…
He’s so tall now… n I’m still so short…*sad*
he looks quite strange today… just a “hi” to me...
oh well, maybe he’s busy for his performance later…
but d worst thing is… my homework is still blank
COMPLETELY BLANK!!!
u know, I suffer from doing homework at the very last minute every week
every Sunday, I just couldn’t sleep early...
n I hate it sooooo much
I really admire ppl who sleeps early
I wonder how they manage their time…
I just got a phd!!!
for time un-management…Lolz

ToMoRroW

2009-02-13T13:09:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was nice
Today is nicer…
Will tomorrow be much more nicer than today?
I don’t know…
Life just goes on whatever it is...
Lets hope for the best for tomorrow! =)

Caridee, tell her!!!

2009-02-09T16:08:00.000+08:00

Dear Caridee,

i was really mad on saturday
i mean... just tell her
that's urs, NOT HERS!!!
she spent her time with ur computer in her room with 3 of other "grown ups" n eunee
she had been using it for 6 hours!!! (when we came till we left)
when she's bored, they started a "nicer" game...
playing with eugeen's hair...
comb, gel, wax...
what?! playing with a boy's hair???!
CHILDISH i would say...
she's such a spoilt "grown-up"...seriously
she's trying to get everything she wants including urs
give me a break!
she's elder than u n me so what???!
she's still "alone"
even her sister came to look for us instead of her "dearest" n "beloved" sister
i really hate her... i mean "dislike"
she thinks she's perfect
yeah, she is...in a bad way
Caridee, i'm really fed up
i didn't even speak to her... not a single word
she n me r like strangers u know?
Just tell her!!!

Upside down!

2009-02-09T10:04:00.000+08:00

Everything was upside down!
It started in d morning…
me, as usual, looking at the clock every 2 minutes, hoping that phatz will come earlier
I waited n waited n waited
finally, she arrived, d nightmare was finally over
I rushed 2 her, telling her every single thing in my mind…
I guess she’s a bit annoyed, coz i can’t keep my mouth shut (i was too happy that morning)
everything went well in school, pretty well…but not for long…
after school, something bad happened
and that was when I started to get “crazy”
I am mad at someone and sth, really really really mad
how can this thing happen?
after school n meeting, I went home with that “thing” still in my mind
then, i went to d party in caridee’s house
everyone was enjoying except me n caridee
n so…I went 2 d playground 4 some fresh air
I spotted my favourite - a swing
n I started swinging, still thinking of that thingy
n then I started counting…1…2…3…4…5…20…40…60…80…100......
puh-lease…who will ever want to count how many times u swing???
n that was the “crazy” thing I did...
i counted n counted n counted
just to get that stupid thing off my mind…
at last, I reached my target - 500
gosh! I never imagine I could do that
my mood got a little better…
but, as a result, my palms got so red n my bottoms aching
I swung for toooo long, on d same swing, non-stop, can’t help it
back to d house, I ate n chat n watched tv…
arrived home at 12.30am, midnight
got ready to sleep…d movie on tv caught my eye…
I lay on d sofa, enjoying d movie Father of The Bride…with my eyes half-closed
Asleep (wat in d world have I done?!)… maybe I was super tired…
n so, I missed d movie =(
*I’ll get d dvd if I can
went to bed at 2am, knocked out in a minute…
Thank god it’s finally over =)

NiCeeee...

2009-02-06T18:31:00.000+08:00

Phew...
Firstly, i want to tell xxx that i did not do that after school... it's somebody else... my FRIEND did it!

Secondly, gwen yi's blog is real nice... strivingforeloquence.blogspot.com... believe it or not, i read it for at least TWO hours

And... i received 5 orders in school today!!! Woohoo! *claps n cheers*
Here is my list :
xxx's - red,
hui ru's- orange,
mine-yellow (i wish it's gold, lolz),
phatz-green,
xxx's-blue,
joy-i don't know what color she wants...give her purple?,
xxx-white...
It's RAINBOW COLORS!
what colors left is violet and pink... who wants?
I don't know when will i finish, but...as soon as possible... coz i'm really addicted to it...=)
btw, i'll finish my art hw 1st...

Homework...

2009-02-04T18:43:00.000+08:00

School...
i did it! i managed to keep myself awake during 2 history periods today! =)
Woohoo!
that's my greatest achievement this year...lolz~
u know, i like history but...
to memorize every single tiny little bit of history...
i'll give up on that.
today i have to start on my art
planned and changed and designed
see how it turns out at the end...
WaiT...

CooL^^

2009-02-02T14:09:00.000+08:00

My aunt's blog is soo cool!
here's her website - mikkolink.blogspot.com
i liked one of the songs - Littlest Things by Lily Allen
she doesn't allow me to call her "aunt"...coz it makes her sound sooooo old
afterall, she's still a TEEN...for 2 to 3 more years perhaps?
and so...i had to call her name...instead...
coz...she's only 17
yeah...an aunt older than me 2 years ONLY
PS : sorry yi min for calling u MY AUNT... =P

PaRTy ~ CRaZy

2009-02-01T12:48:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was totally fun! =)
My friends and I had a very crazy party till 11pm
that was really enjoyable...
we ate a lot...my tummy almost burst
drink a lot too...4 kinds of drinks
play a lot also...actually mainly chatting
and of course we were so crazy that i can't sleep till midnight =(
BUT...I enjoyed every bit of it
it's just one word---INCREDIBLE!

FaScINaTiNG...

2009-01-31T11:09:00.000+08:00

Today is fascinating!

Bought a new board game in mid valley

Saw my friend, anne who transferred to a new school

Collected some money for school =)

Met someone who came back from Hong Kong

AND someone followed me...on my blog

haha...nice day =)

Today...

2009-01-30T12:53:00.000+08:00

Today is a nice day =)

well...went to some houses, looking for my dad's old friend who came down from Penang

he had a daughter n a son

she spoke to me...

n we talked for every minute since then

talk about our lives, family, studies, bla bla bla and so on

then...

went to another friend's house together

played cards...wasn't that interesting

drop them off at someplace

then...home

slept...for don't know how long

then...computer

dinner

computer again

~When loneliness strikes~

Whoa~!

Sweet

ASDF

as years gone by

Best isn't best anymore

Pissed...no Peace?

Madness >.>

Sports DAY

迷茫

特别的心情

愤！

Childish

swimmy :)

Made a new friend whose name i never got

D:

sunshine.

HATE! vs LOVE?

hols. resolutions?

day by day...

WHERE D 'H' IS EVERYONE?!?!?!

jshffefvnvjgyrerbsho8fer =P

Keychains n Soft Toys

Let Go

Double L's

anti-hw

M O O D Y

Someone's Watching Over Me

I Will Follow Him~

100 Truths - by Anne

First Taggie...by Evelyn =)

Jog-a-thon

Wonder~

L A Z Y

-u-

I am?

ChANge

Roxy...miss you

Bankrupt~

Couzzie makes you Cozy

Ways on how to spend time*only for reference*

CraP~

Rain /l/l/l/l/l/l

"E+" the Exam Monster!!!

Things are sooo not right...

Sister Of A Witch~

Speechless..

Today just ROCKS!!!

S-T-M (stupid time management)

ToMoRroW

Caridee, tell her!!!

Upside down!

NiCeeee...

Homework...

CooL^^

PaRTy ~ CRaZy

FaScINaTiNG...

Today...

Ways on how to spend timeonly for reference