ASDF

Please jangan pura-pura tak see me kay, you know I hate it, I really hate it and it really hurts me. Sometimes I wonder are we friends or we just weren't friends at the very beginning. You kind of hurt me, i don't think you ever noticed anyway. Yeah, if you want to do this, don't stop me, u wanted it that way, so don't blame me afterthat. I am warning you. Damn you!

Someone has no time for me, I'm starting to get tired. When I'm too tired, I'll be letting go. when I let go, there'll be hardly any chance to reverse. You are getting me used to be without you, and sadly, I'm starting to get used to be without you. Hell! I don't want this to happen. It's coming to an end i know...

Well, after all I'm just a noone. D marathon was okay, I just wasn't prepared. I'm never prepared for anything, up till now. I feel really useless. And now, I'm back, being my own self, shutting up, sitting at the corner, waiting for everybody to pass me by and say 'hey, useless.' i can't help feeling lonely. Sometimes i wanna shout out ' leave me alone to die by myself here'. I hate that feeling, it's awful, it hurts. still, I don't know what the hell to do with myself and my life. And I ended up mourning everyday about how my life sucks and how my results suck .... There's no use I know, what am I suppose to do and where am I suppose to go? I'm lost, I don't know, I really don't know. Maybe I'm just tired, perhaps I'm really not prepared, maybe it's best for me to just sit down at d corner, perhaps I'm born to be by myself, maybe I should just stop thinking about nonsense, perhaps it's time, it's time to get my ass off the floor and run for my life, for my future, for myself, and the world.